What makes a person want to become a parent? Are we born with the urge to reproduce or do we have some control over it? Is it different for men than it is for women? Why do some people get “baby fever” while others are perfectly fine without ever having children?
While these questions are certainly interesting, I wouldn’t want to speculate by answering them. Some women will have difficulty articulating why they want to become a parent. “I’ve wanted children forever.” is something many of us say when asked why we want children. The idea of not having children is so foreign to the people that give that answer. They believe their life would be empty, always having a void to fill without children. One thing is for sure, that does not apply to me. As a little girl, I would always say I didn’t want to be a parent. I always thought I wouldn’t be a good mother. I didn’t want any children and I persistently held on to that opinion until I moved out of my parents’ house about 5 years ago.
If someone were to ask me now, why I so desperately want to be a mom, and why I am so sure being a single parent is what I want to do, I have to give multiple reasons. Some big, some small, but all those reasons play a part in every aspect and layer of this decision. About 99% of the choice is for the reason that I want to educate and influence the next generation, I want to transfer and continue my view on this world. I want my child(ren) to make this world a better place like I try to do every day. I want to teach them morals and respect in the way I see it. The other 1% of the decision is because I want to show everyone there is another way of parenting. And that I, a wheelchair using 23 year old can do it. I can take care of a child. I can do it. I can be a great, awesome, loving parent.
Honestly, I can feel it in every fiber of my being. I am ready and I can do it like I do everything else I’m passionate about in this life I will give parenthood 200% of me. I will give it my all and like all the other passionate decisions I made, I will be great at it. It will be hard, it will be tiring and it will be challenging, I am absolutely sure I will have to push myself mentally and emotionally but it will be worth it. It will be the best and worst time of my life and I will love it. I am ready!
Because my life looks a little different than most single parent life’s I wanted to document and share my experiences to give people an insight in a different way of life and broaden people’s perspective on what I am capable of. So please, enjoy this journey with me. I can promise you it will never be boring! until next time! ~ Aura